Should I be?

So when you give to a charity what do you expect in return? If you gave something as a donation, knowing that you would get a little something in return, and then you don’t get the return, can you be upset? Frustrated? Disappointed?

We gave money to a charity a while back (November to be exact) that provides computers to children in underdeveloped nations.  We actually gave enough money to give one computer to a child and then get another one for ourselves.  Of course I have more than a few computers sitting around the house so what do I need another one for?  Well Mary and I were going to start showing it off and talking to other groups about getting involved with the organization and donating also.

This was a very popular program.  Way more popular than the nonprofit that started it expected.  So now we are in the middle of a “shipping delay”.  Turns out the company “lost” thousands of orders through what they call the Give One Get One program.  We have been reassured that we will receive the computer, we just don’t know when.

My question is if it is within reason to be upset?  The goal of this was not for me to get a new computer.  It was for a child in Mongolia, Africa, or South America to get a computer to use in school.  From what I can tell they have shipped millions of computers to those children.  And our donation helped make that possible.

Now I have read multiple forum post by people who say they are in the process of having their credit card company begin a charge back process.  That makes me sick.  Those people were in it for themselves and don’t care about trying to embrace the spirit of the OLPC movement.

I’m not really upset, just kind of confused.  Everyday I come home hoping to see a green box on the doorstep with and XO on the front.  I want to play with it, show it off, develop for it, but most of all, get people involved with it.

 

He’s going to….Kansas City, Kansas City here he comes!

Here comes Barack Obama.

The Democrat who is running neck and neck with Hillary Clinton will appear at a Tuesday late-afternoon or early evening rally in Kansas City, U.S. Sen. Claire McCaskill announced this afternoon. That’s one week before Missouri’s Feb. 5 presidential primary.

Location? Yet to be determined. (We’ll post it right here when we get it).

At a midtown rally, McCaskill predicted that Feb. 5 turnout in Missouri could reach as high as 50 percent. That’s a far cry from past presidential primaries and a turnout total that almost certainly would benefit Obama.

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That’s  right folks.  Barack’s coming to town and we need to get out there and show people we support what he’s doing.  I will keep you posted on when and where.  Hopefully I’ll be able to go but I just don’t know yet.  If I do I’ll try and do a live blog again!

Peace!

 

Serve…

I believe a huge part of leadership is servitude.  To be able to lead people you have to be with them, learn from them and understand them.  By serving them you fill those ideals and earn the respect of the people at the same time.

Barack has a huge background in serving people.

Not only does he serve people but he wants us to be servants to each other.  As a Christian, this is the way it should be.  As a human, this is the way it should be.

I hadn’t read Barack’s initiatives on serving each other until just the other night.  And when I did I found some ideas that blew me away…

Expand Service-Learning in Our Nation’s Schools: Obama will set a goal that all middle and high school students do 50 hours of community service a year. He will develop national guidelines for service- learning and will give schools better tools both to develop programs and to document student experience. Green Job Corps: Obama will create an energy-focused youth jobs program to provide disadvantaged youth with service opportunities weatherizing buildings and getting practical experience in fast-growing career fields.

Require 100 Hours of Service in College: Obama will establish a new American Opportunity Tax Credit that worth $4,000 a year in exchange for 100 hours of public service a year.

What would happen in this nation if all students performed 50hrs worth of community service a year?  What would that do to our communities?  How would that impact the student’s lives?

That’s  HUGE people!!!  This is incredible stuff!!!

How many students from low income families would be able to attend college if they had a $4000 tax credit.  All for working 100hrs?!

Please, sit back and think about what kind of country we could become if everyone got involved in community service.  Everyone helping each other.

I’m getting so excited just thinking about it!!!!

 

Sit back and think a second…

How did you spend your day today? A good number of people were off today. Schools were out, banks were closed, stock markets closed. In true American fashion a lot of people spent time shopping and spending money. And that’s fine, it’s what people like to do. But how many people took the spirit of this day and actually did something about it? Did you?

The answer for myself and my wife was yes. Today, along with yesterday we spent a few hours of our days off to reach out. To spread a message. To get people involved. We went to one of the poorest neighborhoods in the Kansas City area and were knocking on people’s doors asking them if they were registered to vote. Asked them if they had any questions. Two well off kids in a run down neighborhood trying to find ways to get people involved in their own well being.

We did have an ulterior motive though. We wanted to get the word out about “our” candidate. Passing out flyers for “our” guy. The thing is, it’s because of the people we visited and talked to over the last couple days that he’s “our” guy. These people need a change. They need a chance. They don’t need a handout or charity. They have skills and drive. They need help getting started.

We as Americans now are at the point of a major decision. We stand at an intersection with many different paths, none of which we can see the end. We can barely see the first few feet. And from that we have to make a choice. That choice will start us down a direction from which there could be no return. The good thing is we can see a little further down one of the paths than the others. The one we are currently on as a nation, we can see a few more feet, maybe even yards, than the others. They don’t look good. They actually look chilling and bleak.

I see this and demand a change.

Change for our nation. Change for our states. Change for our cities. Change for our neighborhoods. Change for our World. I see one person with the opportunity to make those changes. He’s got the vision and more so the passion and compassion. He’s the kind of guy that makes you want to believe. Makes you want to have hope for the future. And you know what.  If we do believe, then there is hope for the future. That’s why I’m officially standing with Barack Obama as “my” guy.

In the past I used to vote along party lines. I was a good republican who listened to Rush Limbaugh, watched Fox News, voted for whatever guy we put up for office. Then something changed. I started looking at the plight of the people around me. Not just those in the east Kansas City neighborhoods. But those in the Brookside neighborhoods. What was their affluence doing to them? What was my good fortune doing to me. Most importantly how do I reconcile this with my faith.

I couldn’t reconcile it, I had to change. I hope over the next few days I can post some more thoughts on this subject. There is still so much more ground to cover and I want to get to it all. In the mean time head over to Barack’s home page and take a look at a few of the videos for yourself. Watch his speech from Iowa. Read about his faith in Christ. See for yourself why he wants us to lead the nation and not the other way around.

peace be with you

 

I received a comment the other day on my site that I felt deserved some attention.  This site is an open forum for discussion and ideas.  Most of the views expressed on this site are mine.  I mean it is my blog, come on.  Get your own blog and you can rant all you want too.  I welcome and encourage comments of all kinds on my writing, but beware that I have the right to respond to your comments in any fashion I want.  Like I said it is my blog.

As I said, there was a comment made that I need to address.  This comment addresses a few points (and solidifies a few) that I made in a post called The Myth of Christian Mythology.

Let’s get this straight.  I am a Christian.  I will not apologize for that fact.  I have spent most of my life trying to figure out why I am a Christian and solidifying my faith.  I did not just accept my parent’s beliefs blindly.  I still today spend a large portion of my dedicating myself to study of my faith and the beliefs of others.  This study has included both philosophical and scientific study.  Am I an expert?  No.  The more I learn the more I learn that I don’t know.  In my study I have found some fact and some fallacies.  I adjust my understanding accordingly.  It’s part of growing as a Christian and as a human.
This is why I feel compelled and qualified to speak for myself when replying to this post.  I have not edited or removed anything written by the original commenter.  All their words are in the order they were typed with my comments inbetween.

I’m late reading this blog post. So who knows if anyone will read this comment. But, as a true atheist, I feel like I need to.  I hear talk from Christians all the time about the New Athiest movement…and they all seem geunienly perplexed as to how…why now? And I’m always stunned at the blindness.

Blindness?  I think that there is every right to say “why now”.  Faith in a higher being has been at an all time low over the past few years.  With political correctness on the rise in the 80s and 90s and the shunning of public religious practices during that time, and to call Christians “blind” to wondering why over the past couple of years “New Atheism” has risen just doesn’t make sense to me.

Can no Christian figure out that this is a reaction to what has gone on for ten to twenty years on the far right and within the Evangelical Christian movement? Instead, Christians only explanation seems to be, as Shiz points out, that this atheism comes from “a place of being deeply hurt”.

The comments about being deeply hurt come from conversations with people we know personally.  People we have sat and discussed the issues with.  For Shiz it was her brother, for me many co-workers and close friends.  And honestly this deeply hurt fits to an exact “T” every time.  Those people I’ve talked to will even say so.  I’m sorry that there was a generalization made.  But I think as we will see later in your comment that you have made some even stronger generalizations that are even more hurtful.  For the time being we will leave it at that.

That right there…isn’t that enough to enrage me? It should be. Telling me that the only reason I believe what I believe is because at some point I’ve been “deeply hurt”. That’s as insulting as it comes actually…and should be your first clue into this New Atheism. To be told that I believe what I believe because I’m “deeply hurt” as opposed to years of thinking and sorting out my own feelings on the subject to come to this conclusion just as you all came to your conclusion to believe in a God.

The deeply hurt part comes from people who grew up in the church, of which most of our generation has, and have since left for some reason or another.  That’s deeply hurt.
I want to point out other lines from the above posts.
Donnie says of athiests that “It’s not enough to live and let live” but goes on to say:

“The good news is that we know the Good News” insinuating all athiests just don’t know what they know.
and

I’m not going to speak for the other posters because I don’t feel that is my job, everyone can speak for themselves and I for myself.  I’m just going to speak to my experiences.

“like you said, you just KNOW that Christ is the Truth”. This particularly is the place that rage and hate comes from. Atheists consider Christians stupid because you cannot “know”. You can think it, feel it etc etc…but you cannot “know” it.

Here Pete you hit on the fundamental difference between Christian and non-Christian.  The fact of knowing something that is scientifically intangible.    I know that God exists and honestly there is no scientific explanation as to how I know.  That is where atheist put up this red flag of logic and say “well then this is an impassable argument”.  Because as an atheist you know by definition, that there is not a god.  If you did not KNOW then you would be an agnostic at best.  As an agnostic you must accept that you cannot know the true nature of God or anything beyond material phenomena.  And since science can neither prove nor disprove the existence of God then neither of our stances can be scientifically challenged.

So how do I know God exists?  Because when I accepted that and came to the realization personally, something changed in my personality.  I changed as a person.  This was what is known to many as a conversion experience.  Sigmund Freud, the noted atheist and psychiatrist, even wrote about experiences such as that.  He himself was baffled by it and could not explain it fully.  For more information on conversion experiences from a scientific standpoint I’m going to refer to Dr. Armand M. Nicholi, Jr.  A few years ago he did a research study with Harvard University on the subject that was posted to the American Journal of Psychiatry.  I would just look it up.  Also for an extremely interesting read pick up Dr. Nicholi’s book The Question of God.  It’s a theoretical conversation between Sigmund Freud and CS Lewis.  It’s one of the most well written boots and thoroughly researched books I’ve read since Brian Greene’s The fabric of the Cosmos.

The atheists I know and have read never admit to “knowing” anything for certain. That’s the whole foundation of atheism is admitting you don’t know and cannot know anything for certain.

Like I said, agnostic, not atheism.  The atheist I know , do know.  They will stake their lives on it.  Just ask Richard Dawkins if he knows. He calls the probability of God “vanishingly small” in the Nov. 2006 issue of Wired Magazine.  I can promise you that Dawkins will stake his life on what he knows.  Do you believe exactly as Richard Dawkins?  I doubt it.  Do you let him speak for you on matters of God?  I hope not.  I can tell you have the mind to speak for yourself on those matters.

But a Christian’s argument is well we just “know”. There’s no discourse from there. There’s no argument to be made with someone that just says “I know the Truth”. And the inability for atheists to argue with Christians over ideas etc without Christians falling back on well “I know” or “It’s in the bible” is where frustration and rage generate.

You’ve nailed the argument.  Both sides are at an impasse because the argument has found it’s way to the root.  We have come to a point where the argument can go no further.  I won’t convince you, you won’t convince me.  We both claim to know the truth and that the other person’s truth is incorrect.

I’m saying to Donnie, you can’t say you’re “willing to live and let live” while saying you “know the Truth” and “I know he has chosen us” and “I know that Christ is real” because clearly you’re not willing to live and let live.

You’re saying that to Donnie and I will let Donnie respond.

On that point…you’re not willing to live and let live when you and your ilk don’t allow people to marry whom they choose. You’re not willing to live and let live when you and your ilk decide how humanity is going to research cures for disease. You’re not willing to live and let live when you denigrate every other religion on the face of the planet. The list could go on and on…and on.

Ok now starts the generalizations.  I will have you know that during a recent public vote that I voted for stem cell research.  How did Donnie personally denigrate every other religion on the face of the planet?  I didn’t see anything in his comment that said that.

That’s where the hatred comes from, your being in everyone else’s lives. And this New Atheism movement is a reaction to it. Not just because again as Shiz says we’re all just messed up and in dark places. Yeah, some things have gone too far sure, trying to remove Jesus and Christian symbols from various things have maybe gone too far…but the recognition has to be there that it’s gone too far on the Christian side too.

I’m going to disagree with you when you say that the New Atheism movement comes from a reaction to people having religion forced down their throat.  New Atheism does not want live and let live either.  Richard Dawkins wants the wants the abolition of religion.  Sam Harris wants the abolition of religion.  Penn Jillett wants to make religion “disappear” (sorry for the bad magic reference).  These are the faces of New Atheism, and they do NOT want live and let live.  They did not leave it open to interpretation.  They want religion GONE.
Are you like these people?  I doubt it.  Do you believe that religion should be destroyed?  I don’t know.  I’ll let you speak for yourself.  But with that said…let me speak for myself.  Don’t think that every Christian is like the TV preachers.  I’ll tell you right now that I abhor Jerry Falwell.  And Pat Robertson is in the same boat.  I am SICK that these people are saying they represent Christianity.  Seriously Jerry, Pat…..SHUT UP!  Ok that’s another topic for another blog post..

The rage and anger comes from arguing with Christians about simple facts like how old the earth and universe are…and seeing them teach children that a stegasaurus pulled their ancestors plows.

Ok another gross generalization and honestly I’m just going to ignore it and chalk it up to you being angry.

If Christians at large don’t believe these things….they need to be proactive and get these people out of positions where they are spokespeople for their religion. You don’t think every Ted Haggard is a poster child for a New Atheist movement.

Thanks, so now I’m like Ted Haggard.  Another sick gross generalization.  So are all muslims bomb toting murders?  Seriously now.  Now you’re just name calling.

You need to look closer at yourselves. Nothing I read above shows anyone questioning their own side and what maybe could have provoked this New Atheism.

That’s because you are assuming that we all think the Earth is 4000 years old, that gays aren’t people, that the Big Bang never happened, and that science is out to kill God.  Wrong on every single account.  The Earth is billions of years old, I have a lot of gay friends some of which are married and are some of my bestfriends.  The big bang as it is known is scientific fact.  And science is a wonderful tool.  I actually work in a scientific field myself.

The discussion/argument I’ve had that sticks in my head is sitting at a dinner table with a girl saying her father who died of cancer was an atheist. A devout Christian at the table apologized to her that he was in hell. What is that? Just one example. Is that “showing someone the way to Christ”?? If God is vengeful enough that he sends someone to hell (granting there is such a place) for not believing in him, then did I want to believe in the first place? He’s given you free will as Donnie seems to agree, but you use that to not believe…and you go to hell? Ok.

Well on behalf of Christians I apologize for the lack of tact of the person at the table with you.  None of us can truly know the heart of a person and how God sees that person.

As for why God would “send” someone to hell.  He doesn’t.  We make that decision ourselves.  Is there a hell?  Well since I believe that there is a heaven then logic would dictate that there must be an opposite.  You can’t have a bad if there is no good.  And you can’t have a good if there is no bad.  But that is a discussion for a whole other blog post.

Shiz’s blog awhile back had a discussion about divorce and Christians posted that it must be the fault of atheism.

While Shiz did post on my blog I will let her defend her statements on her own blog which I’m sure she will be happy to do.

Christians disallow people from marrying whom they want, then blame athiests for the divorce rate.

I’m going to assume you are talking about gay marriage here since you did not qualify your point.  And I will refer you to my previous statement about the gay couples that I know and are good friends with.  Do I have a problem with them being married?  Not at all.

Concertman, you talk about the New Atheism reveling in pointing out the inconsistencies they find between Christians and the bible. Isn’t that a pretty big one, where you deny marriage for people based on religion, but allow divorce. It’s inconsistencies like this that can’t be ignored when you’re disallowing people from marrying and receiving the basic services this allows.

Again, another generalization, and again read the above comments.  I don’t mind you poking your finger in my chest but please back up your statements with hard facts and not loose generalizations.

If the Christian movement wasn’t at the forefront of disallowing certain marriages and stem cell research etc…then you wouldn’t be getting called out on inconsistencies.

And again…

If you’re going to be at the forefront of these movements, shouldn’t you expect to have your beliefs criticised?

Did I say I don’t expect my beliefs to be criticized?  Not at all.  In the words of Cheerleader #1 from Not Another Teen Movie “You better bring it.”.  Sorry, I’m into the cheesey movies.

How about, if you’re going to disallow by law gay marriage…then you have to make a law saying you can only marry once? How would that go over? Or as they are doing in Oregon…make a law that says you have to prove after three years of marriage your ability to pro-create as that’s the basis for marriage the Evengelical Christian movement says. I could go on and on with inconsistencies and you’ve heard them….but the point is, if you’re the leader against these things it’s inconceivable that you shouldn’t expects your beliefs to be picked apart.

Ok, serisouly…argument fell apart and you let it get personal.  You can pick at my beliefs but don’t put beliefs on me that I don’t state that I have.  By me saying I’m a Christian doesn’t mean I’m stupid and ignorant.  I have spent years evaluating my own belief and question it  all the time because when it something that I am basing my life on…I want to make sure I’m right.  So by putting that stereotype on me only goes to show that there is possibly a new bigotry on the rise.

Do I hate Atheist?  If anyone even thinks that or suggest that just shows how little they actually know me.

I will invite anyone to comment on this post but I ask one thing.  Respect.  No matter what the person’s beliefs are.  If someone start flaming other people in the comments then those comments will be pointed out and possibly removed along with all subsiquent comments.

 

Has technology surpassed the government?

I just emailed a local councilman about a law he proposed that I felt was unfair.  20 mins later he responded.  20 mins after that I responded.  We were having a conversation, in quasi real time.  My voice was being heard.  His voice was being heard.  Did we agree?  No, but that’s beside the point.  I applaud this councilman for using technology to talk with the people he represents.

But that is just an isolated event.  One personal response out of the hundreds of emails that I have sent to government officials (yes I’m one of those who actually writes my government officials).  Today we live in a world where millions of people can vote fairly and accurately for who they thought the best singer was on a TV show.  All via their cell phone.  We live in a world where I can post a message on a website and minutes later have someone read that comment on live TV.  We live in a world were about 100 people will visit a website just to see what I have to say (that means you reading my website).  You have left comments on my site, you tell me what you are thinking, where you agree, where you disagree.  I make realtime adjustments to my website based on what you, the reader, wants, because I’m here for you!  (visualize Uncle Sam pointing at you).

Why then, can’t our government figure this out?  If you look at it we have a system of government that is approx 2000 years old (think Roman government here people, stick with me).  In the time when a representative government was formed, people chose figures to be present for them and to speak for them when they couldn’t.  Their means of communication dictated that they had to have someone there to speak for them.  For thousands of years this worked in an ideal fashion in most cases.  Until now.

Today we still have the same 2000 year old form of government, but something has changed.  Communication.  With this 2000 year old government we are still using 2000 year old communication.  We rely on our elected officials to speak for us, but today it’s not out of necessity, it’s out of convenience.   We just elect someone who thinks the way we think and then turn them lose on Washington to do as they please because we think they will respond in a manner in which we think we would respond.  Where has this gotten us?  Well just ask any John Doe what they think of the current government and you will have your answer.

Because we are too lazy to take an active role in our government we are in the situation we are in where people feel like the government has lost touch with the people.

Imagine this.  Once a week you log onto a website.  On that website is a list of items to vote on.  There’s a section of the site for debate.  Open debate, and expert analysis.  You can add your own comments and then read what experts in that field believe on both sides.  You make your choice and vote.  The next issue comes up.  You repeat the same process.  In an hours time you have researched and voted on a number of different bills.  You have just taken part in your government.  Your voice has been heard.  Your voice, not someone you hope will vote the way you want them to.  And it took one hour out of your week.  Probably the same hour you would have spent watching wannabe rock stars be berated by music industry has-bens.

Is this over simplifed?  You betchya.  Is it feasable?  Absolutely!  Will some professional politictian have the guts to make it happen?  Only time will tell.  Most politicitans will see it as a threat.  That reason alone is enough to make you think change is needed.

 

The Myth of Christian Mythology?

There’s something I’ve been struggling with a whole lot lately. I mean a LOT.

I work with a lot of atheists. That’s not the struggle part because I think they are great people and really enjoy their friendship. My struggle comes from this “New Atheist” movement. People like Richard Dawkins, Penn Jillet, and many other atheist who have “had it with religion”. It seems they find joy and satisfaction in destroying what others believe. They love to catch Christians in what they believe as falsities and inconsistencies in the Bible. They elate with joy when they tear apart someone who can’t explain every little part of the Bible that they have deemed to be hard to believe.

I’ve been trying to educate myself on both sides. I’ve been reading lots of apologetics and watching films by Richard Dawkins. I’ve read articles in Time and Wired magazines. I’ve been praying.

All that and the only thing I’ve come up with are more questions.

There is something deep inside me that is telling me Christ is the only truth. It just makes sense to me. Every time I hear or read something about new atheism I just get this deep sick feeling. It hurts and it is worrisome.

Every time I hear an atheist talk about God, I just feel the hatred and pain that they feel it seems. If you listen long enough and look deep enough into what they are saying you will see it too. There is hate. Pure hate. They may not say it or even feel it but if you pay attention you can see it. I honestly think this is one of the first times I’ve understood the true emotion of hate. It’s sick and scary and I think that’s what bothers me so much.

I’m going to end this stream of thought for now, but we will revisit this one. It’s too much to just leave.

 

Reason #4982 to buy a Hummer…

Because when you get in a wreck in a Hummer you are more protected.

Unless that wreck is when you hit anything… Then you’ll probably die. But really you are safer in a Hummer…aren’t you?

 

I’m not voting…

Just like my last post…..I’m sick of it!  Our entire government has freaking lost it! None of these people deserve to be in office.  Seriously, none.  No, I mean none!  If I have to hear one more TV ad stating that I should believe one person more than the other I’m going to flip out!

I just had a conversation with my dad and he told me that if you don’t like either then at least vote for the republican so that the democrats can’t control the house.   Ummm……NO!  That is just stupid.  Seriously, my vote is important so much so that I don’t think any of the candidates have earned it.

Then there are the two state amendments that are on our ballot.  One for stem cell research and another for adding tax to cigarettes.  I’m not even going to get started on the bickering and back stabbing that has gone on with these.  Patricia Heaton, Kurt Warner, and Jim Caviezel are now telling me how to vote?  Last I checked at least two of them don’t even live in this state!  Holy crap people!  This is freaking nuts!  If I wanted the opinion of someone famous I’d ask their manager, by the way, I don’t want their opinion.

So far no one has said anything about any issues I’m interested in.  Like how do we plan on dealing with coming ecological issues such as global warming.  How do we make sure that people are not being poisened by the food we eat everyday (do some research on the effects of hydrogenated oils).  How do we keep mega corporations from ruining people’s lives and communities (WalMart anyone?  Do some research and you’ll see what I mean)?

No one is talking about issues.  They are concerned with which Republicans are gay, who is stealing money, who votes with President Bush, and how they are going to support their drug habbit for the next 4 years.

That’s why I’m not voting.

 

Too much….ok?

It’s gone too far. I used to be a good Republican. I listened to Rush. I supported the economy. I went to church. I agreed that we needed less government and less taxes. And I still believe all that (well I don’t listen to Rush….that was soo 1995).

The governement that is in place now has got to be removed though. I’m not just talking about Bush. I mean the entire flipping thing. This new “torture law” has pushed me over the edge. NO ONE has the right to subject another person to our laws and not have the rights that were passed in the constitution and the bill of rights apply. What do I mean? If an “enemy combatant” is tried by US Military or anyone remotely related to the US then they should have the same rights. That is being taken away. And basically our governement, not just Bush, is giving the finger to the Geneva Convention by passing this bill. I do mean everyone in our government.

Many times the minority has been able to block a bill from passing even on the most trivial of points. If they can no pull the same kinds of stunts with this bill then they are just as guilty.

Below are links to 3 respected publications all commenting on this bill. Read them and take action.

http://blog.oneamericacommittee.com/story/2006/9/28/12224/6829

http://www.latimes.com/news/opinion/la-oe-ackerman28sep28,0,619852.story?coll=la-opinion-rightrail

http://www.cnn.com/2006/POLITICS/09/28/congress.terrorism.ap/index.html

If this law passes then it is the first step into 1984

WAR IS PEACE

FREEDOM IS SLAVERY

IGNORANCE IS STRENGTH